Sunday, 30 April 2017

Piano 32: Melancholy Melody | original piano & voice song

The song version of my composition Melancholy Melody. The lyrics reflect a disenchantment with mainstream culture but I hope the melody makes up for their blasé nature. There are two of me singing against the piano backing to create a choral effect but they are separate vocal performances synced together, despite looking almost the same. Thanks for tuning in!

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Thought 536: The Dangers of Excessive Truth-Seeking

Excess in any field of life, including truth-seeking, is detrimental to health and well-being. 

Indeed, the maxim
Μηδὲν ἄγαν (no thing in excess)
 is attributed to the Seven Sages of the Ancient World.

An excessive concern with 'truth' can indeed turn one into a dogmatist who has cast aside all remnants of humility and respect for philosophical diversity. It can also darken one's worldview to such an extent as to make harming others seem advisable (see Consequences of Worldview). 

As Nietzsche wrote
"He who fights monsters should look to it that he himself does not become a monster."
It was indeed that thinker who thought that art was worth more than truth since compelling us to life or at least sometimes making life worth living, which cannot be said with the same force of dogged truth-seeking, especially when the latter takes issue with every aspect of the human condition. 

At any rate, art has a capacity for more open-ended-ness and nuance than 'truth' discourses, whether of the philosophical or factual variety (see Factual and Philosophical Truth) and can sometimes prove to be a more effective way to resist and side-step immoral realities than head-on political activism (Refusing to Play the Chess Game). 

Addendum - Nietzsche's view that 'we have art in order not to perish from the truth' is somewhat echoed by French author Marcel Proust's aesthetic solution to the problem of existence in the last instalment of his mammoth novel In Search of Lost Time (also known as Remembrance of Things Past). 

In that book, Time Regained, the Frenchman writes
"Yet it is true that truth, which is not compatible with happiness or physical health, is not always compatible even with life."

Saturday, 29 April 2017

Thought 535: Butch from Pulp Fiction

In the movie Pulp Fiction directed by Quentin Tarantino, a telling exchange occurs between the boxer Butch - who's just killed a man in the ring - played by Bruce Willis and a hispanic, female cab driver named Esmerelda:


               He looks at her license.

                         ...Esmarelda Villalobos – is that 

                         The name is Spanish, but I'm 

                         It's a very pretty name.

                         It mean "Esmarelda of the wolves."

                         That's one hell of a name you got 
                         there, sister.

                         Thank you. And what is your name?


                         Butch. What does it mean?

                         I'm an American, our names don't 
                         mean shit.

This last statement is funny because 'butch' of course means 
'having an an appearance or other qualities of a type traditionally seen as masculine'
which is an appearance action-thriller actor Bruce Willis - not to mention the character he plays in the film, a lethal professional boxer and criminal - is usually associated with. 

Thought 534: Experience as Interpretation

It goes almost without saying that when individuals claim to be speaking or writing 'from experience' they are in fact doing so from an interpretation of their experience, because experience, however objective, is always filtered through an individual's sensibility and outlook.

Art 35: Puppet Monst Looks at the Moon | comic

Piano 31: Upwards & Forwards | original piano & voice song

The piano and vocals version of my composition Upwards & Forwards. The lyrics of this song were inspired by my reading about MK Ultra/Project Monarch ritualised (child) abuse. Hardly fun but I hope the song's harmonies make up for the dark subject matter. There are two of me singing against the piano backing to create a choral effect but they are separate vocal performances synced together, despite looking almost the same.

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Friday, 28 April 2017

Art 34: Puppet Monst at the Seaside | comic

Thought 533: Not Terrible

"Pas terrible" meaning "not terrible" is a French euphemism meaning "piss poor" or "very mediocre". I feel that way about some of my original piano work. 

Piano 30: Joyful Melody | original piano composition

My 5th piano composition, and a very short one. The other side of Melancholy Melody if you will, which like its brother has no melody! Can be used as a closer or an interlude for my original piano work. Hope some of you like its uncomplicated charm.

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En français 3: E-puisé et é-nervé

é-puisé = avoir son puits, à savoir son énergie et resources vitales, vidées, c'est à dire tirées hors de soi.

é-nervé = s'être fait faire sortir en dehors de ses nerfs, que ce soit par provocation déliberée, inattention ou inadvertance. 

Dans les deux cas, le préfix e ou ex est latin pour 'en dehors de'.

Thought 532: In-Fluence & Con-centration

Influence, in-fluence. Fluency. I suppose fluency in language, emotional literacy or artistic endeavour helps one influence people, i.e. flow into them. 

The word 'concentration' formed of the words con from the Latin for 'with, together' and centre (the Latin centrum) is self-explanatory enough: to bring or come to a common centre. 

To concentrate is to centre oneself for the purposes of mental focus and a con-centration of people or things means they are moving in the same physical location, i.e occupy the same centre, as in a concentration camp. 

Thursday, 27 April 2017

Thought 531: Fear as Suffering - Rational and Irrational Fear - Courage

One of the nasty ironies of fear, which is often born of an impending sense of harm occurring to one's person or one's loved ones (which is the same thing) and the suffering such harm causes, is that it is itself a form of suffering. 

That is to say, fear of suffering is itself suffering.

Fear is a draining emotion, lessening our enjoyment and ability to deal with life, and is of course the state of consciousness that evil, wicked controllers seek to promote and propagate using the multitude of financial, legal, and mass influence devices at their disposal.

Many are driven to conform to intolerable societal conditions simply because of the fear of being left to rot not to say punished for being themselves and following their innermost instincts. 

[Others will respond to fear by attacking others whom they perceive as being a threat (see Consequences of Worldview).]

This is why economic anxiety is such a plague on people and especially the youth of today. For it is the need to acquire money and possess it that stops many from exploring their consciousness and their creative selves, that makes them get involved with institutions and organisations which are harmful to them but nonetheless keep them within arm's reach of monetary solvency.

I associate feelings of fear in my psyche with often a sense that, should negative events occur in my life, particularly of a financial and bereavement nature, I will be overwhelmed and unable to cope; that is to say, I think the degree of control one feels one has on one's inner self - which is essential for any degree of self-agency to manifest - is proportional to one's levels of psychological fear.

This is why many people with anxiety or depressive disorders are more at the mercy of fear since their level of control over their emotions and therefore their environmental conditions is greatly reduced, leading them to feel overwhelmed and unable to cope far quicker than individuals who, while undergoing difficulties, are still largely agents of rational free will based in expanded (love) rather than shut-down (fear) consciousness.

My personal coping mechanism with the feeling of anxious fear - sometimes referred to as existential angst - is to accept it rather than fight it but still make the conscious effort to listen to what my higher brain, rational functions are telling me rather than respond and give in to the emotional part of my mind and body's physiology.

This is easier said than done but is a life skill that can be honed with deliberate and disciplined practice as and when angst is felt. This skill, as I said, is to be able to experience intense fearful feeling without taking it too seriously or giving it more than its due as opposed to bloody-minded rational agency, which can operate in spite of emotional fear (the true meaning of courage), even though many will argue that fear in some cases is rational. 

[Put more succinctly: I'm not saying fear can always be overcome but I do think it a good idea to act in spite of it whilst feeling and accepting it for what it is by appealing to higher brain functions and reasoning powers.]  

However it is usually the case that fear is irrational because even though one might have good reason to be afraid when, say, faced with a dog affected by rabies or an armed assailant, how often do such caricatural and context-specific instances of rational fear occur as opposed to generalised, often economically and people-induced, feelings of angst which have to do more with the unknown, i.e. what might have happened in the recent past or may happen in the future?

Piano 29: Up The Ladder | original piano composition

My 16th piano composition. Our word scale comes from the Greek for ladder and indeed this piece is nothing put a chord progression up the scale starting from g major.

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Wednesday, 26 April 2017

Thought 530: A Well-Fair Philosopher

Should a biography ever be written about my largely insignificant and unaccomplished life, a possible title could be:
"Tom Romer, the Well-Fair Philosopher." 

Thought 529: The Road to Hell Cliché

"The road to hell is paved with good intentions."
Needless to say that it is also paved with bad intentions. Duh.

Thought 528: Does the Liberation of Money Liberate?

Following an observation by my girlfriend about 'anarcho-capitalism', according to which she claimed that anarcho-capitalists want to liberate money, not people, and to which I replied that anarcho-capitalists would argue that the liberation of money leads to the liberation of people, an observation which could be applied to all agendas to liberate financial markets, such as in Thatcherism and in the philosophies of Ayn Rand and Friedrich Hayek, an operative question that people on different sides of the political spectrum give different answers to is whether the liberation of money leads to the liberation of human beings or, to the contrary, leads to their enslavement?

In other words the million dollar question is: does the liberation of money, e.g. through a free market of monetary currencies or simply laissez-faire capitalism, liberate or enslave people?

I touched on this issue in my writing Position on the Money Issue but more from the angle of money as such. Is money a liberating force or an enslaving force? Surely it depends on whether you have it or not and whether in order to get it you need to sell your labour 24/7. As with almost all questions under the sun, the answer is context-sensitive.

Ditto, does money come to rule the minds of only 'unbalanced' individuals as someone I had a discussion with claimed, saying as he did that money was a neutral entity with no consciousness, or is it more that money, at bottom, only exists in consciousness and that we could perfectly function, if we were evolved and moral enough as a species, without it?

Does the answer to the question not also depend on how and why money is used and made, in keeping with the insight I've expressed before that the worthiness of any system, be it capitalism, socialism, voluntarism, or indeed, monarchy, democracy, anarchy depends entirely on its level of morality (France and the Collective, The Problem of Taxation - Importance of Morality)?

This is where looking at factual reality, how things manifest in practice, comes to take importance although of course, as I wrote recently, getting to grips with the facts themselves not to mention their interpretation is a matter of much contention owing to epistemological reasons of the limitations of knowledge acquisition (mentioned in The More You Know The Less You Think You Know and famously analysed by the 18th century philosopher Immanuel Kant and later epistemologists and scientific philosophers) as well to the diversity of people's life contexts and sensibilities (Knowledge and Sensibility) and the role played by such psychological phenomena as cognitive dissonance and confirmation bias.

All this to say, many I think are in error in feeling that such and such a thing, e.g. technology, socialism or government, is intrinsically immoral if they fail to grasp that a high level of morality in any system or activity is conducive to the common good as opposed to a high level of immorality - which is conducive to general suffering. 

People will be quick to point out that what constitutes morality is itself contentious and historically changing but, as I have said before (Freedom & Morality), victimless deeds or deeds where only 'society' is the victim as opposed to living, breathing human beings are not prima facie immoral because no tangible harm or violation of Natural Law has been manifested.

Thought 527: Literalist Understanding in Many Conspiracy Theories

Readers of my thoughts will know that I am not completely averse to conspiracy theories since I view some of them as often being fact-based critical research of events in the interests of truth and public disclosure, undertook with the insight that the powerful do not, as a rule, have the best interests of the masses at heart (Evaluating Conspiratorial Angles, We're All Conspiracy Theorists, Conspiracy Theorist, Conspiracy Theorising, One Eyed Man and The Minions). 

As I've written before, a conspiracy means a group of two or more people secretly colluding together to do harm for selfish gain. 

This post however to say that I've picked up on a tendency to literalist understanding in some quarters of the truth movement.

An example that immediately comes to mind is David Icke's reptilian-hyprid theory, according to which many of the world's elite are not in fact human or that the moon is some form of alien spacecraft instrumental in keeping the earth under control. 

The reason this strikes me as literalist is that it may well be true that many of the world's leaders are based in the R complex of the brain, i.e. the reptilian brain stem, or that our perception of the moon is simplistic but to go from there to a full-blown position that the aforementioned leaders are lizard aliens or that the moon is a spacecraft, both angles being incredibly particular to our time with its science-fiction tradition as opposed to earlier times which had no concept of spacecrafts or indeed outer space populated by alien beings, is somewhat lacking in metaphorical subtlety. 

This is evident in interpretations of Ancient Mesopotamian Creation stories which do mention what some would take to be as extra-terrestrial beings: some see them as literally signifying alien intervention in the course of human development while others take a more metaphorical view of these alien 'gods' myths, being more sensitive to the mythologically-minded worldview of Ancient Cultures, μῦθος in Greek meaning speech or tale. 

Another example that comes to mind is the Disney subliminal messages conspiracy - do these subliminal messages really point to a purposeful agenda to corrupt the young by the satanic freemason Walt Disney and his successors or are they the fruit of disgruntled and naughty Disney artists having a bit of Tyler-Durden-esque fun at the expense of the Disney-watching masses, which has been proven to be the case in one of the most glaring of examples (Tyler Durden being an anarchist character in the novel Fight Club)?

In the first video I linked, the speaker interprets the Disney animated movie Beauty and the Beast as really glorifying a form of pagan bestiality, Belle falling in love with a kind of animal/dog man, when more traditional, metaphorical understandings interpret Beast as pointing to the beast within all of us, all the more so that the reason he became a physical beast was due to un-Christian pride and arrogance. 

Independent journalist James Corbett from often amusingly makes slight adjustments to more extravagant conspiratorial angles by saying, for example, that recurrent media lies and cover ups are not so much due to all the journalists in question selling their souls to the illuminati but to sociological phenomena whereby journalists follow the lead of editors themselves answerable to the corporate interests of their organisation which, after all, is out to make money ( 

He also makes fun of the 'conspiracy' that all US presidents are distant family relatives, again pointing to an illuminati dynasty angle, because scientifically everyone you meet is likely to be at least your sixteenth cousin. Nor will a document signed in Rothschild's blood about the evil intent of the Federal Reserve ever come to public awareness as opposed to dry, technical documents that few if any will bother to read.

Paul is Dead conspiracies according to which Paul McCartney from the Beatles died in 1966 and was replaced by a look-alike have a certain charm for those who feel the singer has lost the songwriting power and charisma of his youth and do seem to take a very literalist understanding of hints in some Beatles songs and album covers that Paul indeed was dead.

As John Lennon sang during his post-Beatles period
"Those freaks were right when they said you was dead."
I am not saying literalism as opposed to more metaphorical understanding is necessarily wrong or at fault but it is reflective of a conscious or subconscious interpretative choice in evaluating information and data.

As such there may indeed be a 'global conspiracy' to bring the earth under a one-world government of tyrannical proportions but is that due to a millennia-long drive of certain 'bloodlines' informed by the occult arts or to the tendency of those in power to want more power because power that ceases to grow is no longer power, at least according to philosopher Martin Heidegger (Nietzsche I & II)?

Thought 526: My Ergophobia

Ergophobia, which is Greek for fear of work, is perhaps the maladaptive condition I suffer from the most in my persistent if diminishing dread of jobholding and finding employment.

I have had jobs in the past, largely in catering, and plenty more voluntary roles for charities and so forth but the world of gainful employment terrifies me, not least because it exacerbated if not caused a great deal of mental health distress in my youth.

The fact is, this 'fact' of course being an opinion, that I am more gentle and sensitive than average which can of course be a drawback in the largely cut-throat, competitive labour market replete, in my opinion, with nagging and narcissistic employers, and certainly in the world of business which, it seems to me, requires a great deal of rude self-assertion and, depending on your position on the career ladder, bossing people around or being bossed around. 

It is my sensitivity - though some, to be sure, think me insensitive - that makes me philosophise and turn to creative modes of expression as ways to fulfil myself but the thought of having to earn a living through, say, teaching, catering, shop-keeping, caring, cleaning, even translating sends cold shivers down my spine. 

It is my ergophobia that has made me take issue with money, money-making, ‘economics’, the jobs system, right-wing and libertarian ideals of economic enterprise and so forth and that ultimately make me a misfit non-conformist. 

While I am someone of some creative ability, job-holding and making money are not one of my talents and I am very much at the mercy of the ever-dwindling Welfare State for my livelihood.

The point of this writing is that employment and making money, which so many see as the material purpose of life, because these activities are instrumental in being able to operate and survive in a monetary system such as ours, are not for everyone, and this is the case usually not because of lazy-ness and ‘taking the piss’, whatever that means, but because of having a personality that suffers from and is therefore averse to the social, sociological and psychological reality of the modern workplace.

In other words it is not that I’m work-shy (see post What is Work?), if work is defined as an activity of disciplined self-application in areas that need attending to, but employment and business-shy because these involve engaging with and labouring under other people in typically hierarchical and insensitive ways. 

Piano 28: Upwards & Forwards | original piano composition

My 3rd piano composition, written in my late teens. Years later I added a melody line complete with lyrics but this is the piano solo version only. I hope some of you enjoy it!

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Thought 525: What is Work?

In political and common parlance, when people say 'work' they usually mean 'jobholding'. 

Jobholding, at least outside the public sector, is really about doing tasks that contribute to a business, whether yours or someone else's, being able to make money in return for a monetary compensation known as a wage or emolument.

Yet there are non-jobholding forms of work: household or other kinds of chores, looking after children, caring for the sick and elderly, cooking, food shopping and so on. 

Thinker Hannah Arendt distinguished labour, which she saw as being the servant to the necessities of the life cycle, e.g. farming and growing food and most things pertaining to biological survival, from work which, for her, manufactures objects or creations that lend permanence to the world, like building a house, a pencil or a spacecraft. 

It could be argued that her concept of work included art works such as musical compositions, paintings, sculptures as well as literary books. 

I have a wider understanding of work as being any activity that requires applying myself with an element of a resistance overcome

That is to say when I'm not in the mood for an activity and yet do it, that feels more like work than leisure (what the Romans called necotium, non-leisure, as oppose to otium, leisure) whereas when I am in the mood for an activity, that feels more like leisure than work.  

Thus the same activity can be leisure one day and work another day depending on whether it feels like a nuisance or not at a given time.

Thus jobs would always count as work for me because they would always be a nuisance, something I don't want to do, an encroachment on my leisure time.

Practicing piano could also be work depending on whether I'm doing it out of pleasure and enjoyment, in which case it would not be, or out of disciplined drudgery, in which case it would be. 

It follows from this subjective approach to the concept of work that it is possible to work less simply by altering or at least influencing how you feel about a given task. 

As Mary Poppins says to the Mr. Banks' children who are reluctant to tidy their room
"In every job that must be done, there is an element of fun. You find the fun and hop, the job's a game!"
However it might be that my definition of work is too wide if one should be of the more puritannical opinion that work always denotes an activity that has to be done, whether for monetary reasons, keeping on top of chores of even because of creative fever, regardless of whether you want to or not.

Thought 524: Who are Taxpayers?

Contrary to popular belief, out-of-work benefits claimants are also taxpayers, despite their income being drawn from taxation, in so far as everyone pays sales tax in the form of VAT whenever they buy goods or services - and who never buys goods or services?

Of course political rhetoric makes the equation between workers and taxpayers because people who are 'economically active' often pay income tax, national insurance and council tax on top of inevitable value added tax. 

Tuesday, 25 April 2017

Thought 523: Tragicomedy

"The world is a tragedy to those who feel and a comedy to those who think."
Since most of us feel and think it follows that the world is tragicomic. 

Piano 27: Idle Etude 2 | original piano composition

My 23rd piano composition and my second 'Idle Etude'. Jumpy and cheerful, just uncomplicated fun on the piano.

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Monday, 24 April 2017

Thought 522: Both Parties Right in Disagreement

It seems to me that when disagreement occurs between two or more parties, both or all parties may be right, responding as they are to their own sensibility and focus (see Knowledge and Sensibility), or at least have some elements of truth in what they’re saying, only no one party has a full, monopolistic grasp of the whole, objective truth since this is humanly impossible. 

Truth, defined as that which is, can admit of more than one perception and while some perceptions may be closer to that which is than others (see Interpreting Information and Angle and Truth), no mere human can grasp the entirety of factual reality. 

At first it would seem that facts, i.e. events that have already taken place, would only admit of a single correct perception - although in practice even merely establishing what actually happened is often a contested and arduous process, such as in court procedures where there are different and competing versions of the facts of the case depending on whose side of the litigation you look at, as well as in history where different historical researchers disagree on such basic things as, say, who was responsible for deciding to launch the atomic bomb in World War 2, the military or President Truman - but events are of course open to interpretation and therefore opinion, defined as one possible angle out of many.

This is evident when it comes to terrorist attacks. All or at least the vast majority will agree as to the event of the attack itself but very soon there will be those labelling the attack as a false flag, i.e. blame its occurrence on the deep State, as compared to the officially acknowledged and mediatised culprits. 

[In fact it could readily be argued that the types and qualities of reactions provoked by news items like terrorist attacks - which can be measured and quantified online by those who possess the means - are of far more consequence politically than the event of the attacks themselves, despite the tragic loss of life and limb, which often involve far less victims than an average week of motoring on the nation's roads. 

This insight in turn would support a view according to which 'the news' can indeed be instrumentalised precisely to provoke certain reactions, as part of divide and conquer, worldview-poisoning or controlled opposition strategies, which conspiracy researchers refer to as a dark use of the Hegelian dialectic, whether it be David Icke's formulation of the 'problem-reaction-solution' technique of power or Mark Passio's equivalent 'chaos-confusion-opportunity' label which that researcher sometimes also refers to simply as 'chaos sorcery'. See Mass Mind Control Techniques, Engineered Crisis, Black Magic as Inversion, Electioneering, Conflict in Politics.]

When it comes not to factual truth but philosophical or even psychological truth this has entirely to do with sensibility and when a couple have a fight over something they both may be saying true things about the other partner yet both think they are in the right as opposed to the other who is in the wrong.

Ditto with left-wing and right-wing dialectics; both sides of the political spectrum will think they are in the right and the other side wrong yet it may turn out that both are right in some areas and wrong in other areas or even, as anarchists would argue, both wrong in all areas because these would interpret government itself as being the problem, the existence of which Left and Right take for granted. 

It remains that the different angles people have, i.e. their opinions, will seize and focus upon different aspects of factual and philosophical truth (often through the agency of what is called confirmation bias) and it would take divine, i.e. impossible, understanding to get a full grip on all aspects of factual and philosophical data in an omniscient manner.  

In my writing Half-Truths I quoted the saying that every truth is a half-truth and therefore also a half-error. I recommended embracing half-errors and half-truths, including the half-truth of the statement ‘every truth is a half-truth’, as the closest approximation we can achieve to a degree of truthfulness. 

The insight that those we disagree with in life may also be speaking some truth should alleviate unhealthy desires to dominate, dismiss or dehumanise those others as well as of falling into dogmatism, i.e. turning into truth-holders seeking to control the thoughts, emotions and actions of others as opposed to truth-seekers who are aware of the ongoing and never-ending journey of knowledge acquisition understood as continual life learning and unlearning (see posts Thinking v Opining and The More You Know the Less You Think You Know). 

Thought 521: A Disclaimer about this Blog

To state the obvious, my thoughts on this blog reflect my own angle on things, as formed by a combination of my own sensibility and personality along with the formative influences and life experience that I have been privy to. 

I know that I seem very outspoken in many of my blog posts, partly due to my formal writing style, as well as dismissive of many aspects of modern culture, weary of humanity, weary of institutions such as government, jobs and the media, but the truth of the matter is I do not take myself or my opinions as seriously as what may come across at first glance

Yes, I feel that my opinions, some of them at least, are worthy to be published and therefore shared on this blog but this blog was created really as a record of my presence on this planet and I am vain enough to wish to have a personal space of my own on the internet where I can keep a full record of all my creative activity, whether artistic, musical or intellectual.  

People are free to come and drop in as they please, to like or dislike my output and even to comment and disagree. But this blog is not about pushing an agenda, saving the world or even making money but simply a diary of my ever-evolving spiritual life in various forms and chronological incarnations.

Addendum  - When I told my mother that in terms of actual print-outs, my blog consisted of 517 writings she said it was impressive that anyone might have 517 ideas. Perhaps, but whatever the number of ideas, this blog is really one thought in many, many incarnations: know thyself

Piano 26: Staccato Hypnosis | original piano composition

My 7th piano composition. This started out as an improvisation inspired by controversial German philosopher Martin Heidegger whose magnetic, structured writing style is well reflected in the piece. Not very popular among those I know, I rather like the composition's un-melodic progressions.

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Sunday, 23 April 2017

Thought 520: Why I Will Never Be A Parent

Why I will never be a parent: I cannot bring myself to bring an unwitting human being into this world of ours which, let's face it, is largely tortured and unpleasant, without them being even able to consent to it in the first place.

Why would I want to impose such god-awful things as school, jobs, money worries and the bullshit of life including bullying, mental health problems, romantic and other forms of trauma, having to sell one's labour to earn a living on someone who didn't ask for any of it?

I can sort of understand having children if it's by accident but voluntarily imposing life on someone, bringing them up as you see fit and of necessity involving them in the cruel nastiness of modern civilisation baffles me in its selfish myopia. 

I do concede, however, the irony that it takes being alive to realise one was better off not being born. 

Piano 25: Wednesday Hope | original piano composition

My 13th piano composition, written on a Wednesday, appropriately enough. This one has garnered a measure of popularity in the past. I hope some of you will like it.

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Saturday, 22 April 2017

Piano 24: Uninspired | original piano composition

My 27th piano composition. It's called 'Uninspired' because I felt no 'ahah' moment when writing it and found myself repeating old compositional ideas. Despite that the piece grew into one of my favourite of mine.

Addendum - Today (27 November 2017) I noticed an incongruity between the sheet music and this recording. The bass clef note at the seventh measure should be a B flat, as stated in the sheet music, as opposed to an F, as performed in this video, which unconscious change significantly alters the tone of the opening moments, but at least has the merit of leading the way into the descending motion towards the E, then the D, then the C and so on. Both the F and the B flat are harmonious but the B flat offers a more interesting flavour in my opinion and a nice, symmetrical contrast to the B natural four measures earlier (still in the bass clef). It is not possible at this late stage to change this recording but let it be noted that I would if I could.

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Friday, 21 April 2017

Thursday, 20 April 2017

Wednesday, 19 April 2017

Thought 519: My View of Happiness

For me happiness denotes more than contentment, being pleased or at least not displeased with one's lot, and of course is not the same thing as fun, when one is pleasantly distracted by an activity or other beings. 

Happiness for me implies a sweet spot in terms of energy stimulation, i.e. when one is at one's optimum in terms of energised immersion in life, whether through an activity, being with other people or simply just being alive. 

Piano 21: Ode To Horace | original piano composition

My 20th piano composition. Written after reading The Odes by Roman poet Horace, I was seeking to emulate Mozart's easy and cheerful clarity, but of course with much less competence and virtuosity. I hope some of you will appreciate this piece's light-hearted intent.

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Tuesday, 18 April 2017

Piano 20: Prelude Mania | original piano composition

My 21st piano composition. A prelude in C major. Despite the title 'Prelude Mania', the performance here is rather understated and quiet. I hope some of you will enjoy this piece's uncomplicated harmonies.

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Sunday, 16 April 2017

Thought 518: Ayn Rand's Philosophical Narcissism

It's bad enough someone openly embraces psychopathic values of selfishness and greed in the written word but the fact others gobble their words up and acclaim them takes the biscuit. 

Nietzsche and Heidegger are nothing but girl scouts in terms of moral/philosophical toxicity compared to full-blown narcissists like Ayn Rand. 

Her influence on the world has been dire, not least because her ideas are the ones that are in power

What she called philosophical objectivism is really, at bottom, philosophical narcissism, seeking to impose ideals she happened to identify with on others that are both callous and a violation of basic human decency not to say acceptable human interaction.

As someone said, sin thrills then it kills. It fascinates, then it assassinates.

I see Ayn Rand as my complete philosophical antagonist, particularly in her endorsement of shallow left brain rationalism devoid of the holistic and empathetic mediation of right-brain intuition.

Piano 18: February Cold | original piano composition

My 24th piano composition. Written on a cold February day, this is reflected I hope in the cold feel of the piece. I hope some of you will enjoy its icy atmosphere.

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Saturday, 15 April 2017

Piano 17: Craving | original piano composition

My 10th piano composition, written, appropriately enough, when experiencing cigarette cravings during a quitting smoking attempt. I did not succeed in quitting but at least I got a tune out of trying.

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